Thursday, November 18, 2010

Having Peace vs. Being Happy

So people ask me often "Are you Happy".  And my answer wants to be a smart ass answer like, "Define Happy"?  but I don't.  My most recent answer is more that I'm at peace with my life.  My job is good, my surroundings are good, I sleep today and I'm  not angry all the time.  I wake up, I pick up my apartment and make my bed everyday.  Some people will be like, I have done that my whole life, but for me it matters to me now and makes things at peace for me doing those everyday tasks that some people take for granted.  It use not matter since I would say, "Those tasks wont get me anywhere".  Today, they do.  I may have $3 to my name but I'm not sitting in trash and debris being depressed and thinking of crazy ways to be "happy & rich".  I can relax and not worry today like I use to.  Though lately Ive been wanting to share and "insert" my peace in family and friends life's and I  have often crossed a line.  To those Family and friends, I am sorry.  I would want to share or "insert"  of what I do to complete a life task or how I get through obstacles that fall into the road of life.  To my family and friends, I need to just keep doing what I'm doing and show how my life is more at peace and not force them into what I call my "Peace Pace" I live today.  So still lots of growth and things I need and want to accomplish, but I wake, eat, sleep and have a mocha all in peace today that I find less stressful than working on  "Being Happy".  

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

The iPhone Prayer

Dear Lord,
I ask to you to watch over my iPhone.  
You see, my whole life is attached to my iPhone
The shiny glittery screen keeps my contacts in a highly detail order whom I fellowship with
I can keep all my glorious life events at the touch of a finger
Different colorful apps keeps me informed and entertained
My Life is not whole without my iPhone
Its attached to me always and god willing I have it unattached 
when it is still in my pocked before laundry time,  God willing it is not next to me on the couch during a nap and it slides into a glass of water on the floor, God willing I not let it slip out of my pocket when near a toilet.  So Lord, help us all that have a iPhone in our Life

...amen   

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Day after 9/11/10

During 9/11/01, I was with family in Maryland just less than an hour away from the Pentagon. The thing I remember most is the eerie feeling of no planes over head. And being in the suburbs of Washington D.C., that is a feeling, sound and sight I will never forget. So I reflected on that day as I rested from a long week and have a long week of work Im blessed to have in front of me. Im also blessed of my son Adam to chose a career as a paramedic that he can save lives like the ones did on that September 11, 2001.

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Lunch-My Job-Time With Son

I've really got to get blogging allot more than what I do!!!!!

Im having lunch at AneMae's in Independence and having a veggie taco salad that I wasn't for sure at the beginning but I absolutely loved it.

Today I'm really in the relaxed mode and resting up so I can give work 900% over the next couple of days then a day off then start next week out strong. This past week I havent felt like I gave what I needed to at work and I really hate that feeling. So most of my time is involved at work. I am really enjoying working at Amazon.com more than any other job I've had. It more than likely has to do with the pay meeting the simple needs I have and really putting a foundation of the stability that Lance needs at this point in my life. I've been given more responsibilities at work and I really want to well for my own satisfaction than anything and hopes that is reflected to those around me and the leadership. I get so frustrated with the negative energy from certain people at work, and I do know that is in any job. It's I am so blessed with the job I have I can not imagine any other company offering what amazon has provided. Also its not rocket science we have to do either!! lol

Enough about work. I have blogged and shared my thoughts before about I have to get passion about something in my life to fill the time outside of work and sleep and all that. On my last visit Adam shared he would like to visit some museums and stuff like that during our visits other than our usual get something to eat and see relatives. That really enlightened me to know he would like to do that with me. I always thought I would be boring for him but we have shared so many things together with scouts such as camping and hiking that anything else would be boring. So I am going to set up a "field trip" for the both of us next weekend and looking forward to it.


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

My Son is Graduating High School




So its 2010. I often wondered what this year was going to be about when I soon figured out what class year he was going to be once he was born. At the time we were wondering what the turn of the century was going to be like let alone the beginning of the first decade of the century. But it is here, Adam's Senior year.

Its Wednesday night shortly after his senior baccalaureate and Awards Ceremony. Also being 4 days away from the graduation itself was making me a basket case.

We survived and enjoyed watching Adam progress through his school years. With an additional bit of special assistance he required made it all happen and I am very proud of him making it through to receiving his diploma. The academic and learning obstacles he had to face and handle forced over half students with his challenges to drop out of school and never be able to succeed very easy in life. That didn't stop Adam. I as his father would be frustrated that more couldn't be done and I know faculty and teachers often rolled their eyes at me. What I wasn't seeing during those frustrated times was Adam fighting through those challenges and I was trying to find a way around them. But again I am very proud of him pushing himself to accomplish what he has.

Adam has chosen a career of a paramedic. His Mother and I was contacted by a state agency who wanted to assist him towards going to Crowder College to get his degree. Through some paperwork and applications accomplished by Adam's Mother it happen that we have most of his school to be financed which took a load of of us. That was a blessing and a positive flow through everyone concerned especially Adam.


So back to tonight. We were expecting Adam to receive an Award for his involvement for the A+ program. The 6th Scholarship to be presented was in the name of Brook Ann Lee Hough Memorial. Brook was a Student with Adam when her life ended 2 years ago in a tragic car accident. The presenter of the Scholarship explained that Brook was full of life and never took things for granted but loved life every minute. The scholarship was towards that attitude of hard work and persistence. Through a number of applications turned in for the application the presenter announced Adam Roy as the recipient of the scholarship of $4,000. Tears drew up in my eyes and an instant lump formed in my throat. At that very moment I knew for certain now Adam has a future to look forward to.



To Adam; I am so Proud of all you've done from earning your eagle scout to graduating from high school to accomplishing the A+ program to a whole list of things. To finishing every cross country race and not missing a practice. Your the best and now the ride is beginning to be fun for you and I'm so happy that I'm able to see it and share with you.

Your the best.

Love Dad



Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Continuing with Life

So life is begining to continue without me fighting it to continue. Many of you know that I started with amazon.com in Coffeyville, Kansas over the holidays and recently was converted from the temp agency to a full amazon.com associate. I really enjoy it there and have met some neat people. The drive is a bit long but manageable.

This year Mom took a couple of falls that have detoured me to living with her for home care during my days off in the week. Though tiring that it may be I don't mind doing as many times she has assisted and bailed me out of my crashes. Now I feel I can contribute back. And not to turn my attention of the purpose of taking care of her, it really fulfills my time which I need. I have said before Im the type Im more productive when busy and occupied.

The other and main event in my life coming up is seeing my son Adam walk across the stage to receive his High School diploma and start a new era in his life. We recently found out that he will financially have the opportunity to attend Crowder College this fall for him to pursue his Paramedic degree.

ANd yes I've said this before but I have some things in the works to get it started, I am close to starting my video blog netcasts to start immediately. More to come later on that. SO anyway, thats all I have and will post soon

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