Thursday, November 18, 2010

Having Peace vs. Being Happy

So people ask me often "Are you Happy".  And my answer wants to be a smart ass answer like, "Define Happy"?  but I don't.  My most recent answer is more that I'm at peace with my life.  My job is good, my surroundings are good, I sleep today and I'm  not angry all the time.  I wake up, I pick up my apartment and make my bed everyday.  Some people will be like, I have done that my whole life, but for me it matters to me now and makes things at peace for me doing those everyday tasks that some people take for granted.  It use not matter since I would say, "Those tasks wont get me anywhere".  Today, they do.  I may have $3 to my name but I'm not sitting in trash and debris being depressed and thinking of crazy ways to be "happy & rich".  I can relax and not worry today like I use to.  Though lately Ive been wanting to share and "insert" my peace in family and friends life's and I  have often crossed a line.  To those Family and friends, I am sorry.  I would want to share or "insert"  of what I do to complete a life task or how I get through obstacles that fall into the road of life.  To my family and friends, I need to just keep doing what I'm doing and show how my life is more at peace and not force them into what I call my "Peace Pace" I live today.  So still lots of growth and things I need and want to accomplish, but I wake, eat, sleep and have a mocha all in peace today that I find less stressful than working on  "Being Happy".  

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